Being a member of a 12 Step program for compulsive eating for the last seven years solved my yo-yo body weight, but not the digestion issues. Weighing, measuring and committing my food is an important, supportive structure that I cherish. Being sugar, flour, caffeine, artificial sweetener and volume free made life manageable. Yet the indigestion continued.
After a consultation with Myra Lewin and more than a year of practicing Ayurveda, I chose Hale Pule’s Panchakarma Home Therapy in spring 2015. A bit frightened of the unknown, I dialed into the first conference call. Reassuring explanations and the opportunity to ask questions eased the discomfort.
Because I want to get the most out of any growth experience, I added the element of silence to the 10 days and found that an equal portion of the panchakarma gifts were emotional. The first gift came as I monitored my silent thoughts. I realized that many of the mental comments were criticism of what my husband was doing or not doing. As I followed the directions to rest, my husband thought it was a great opportunity to ask me for some computer help. I began helping him and it multiplied into a major task. I ended up having an emotional outburst. This gift became obvious. He is not the enemy for asking. Boundaries are mine to know, state and be responsible for carrying out. Saying yes and then having resentment is damaging to our relationship.
Day six, the castor oil day*, I was amazed. The greatest surprise was that my knee, which had been bothering me for months, suddenly had no more pain. My intestines felt calm.
Body, mind and spirit were nurtured and enlightened through the panchakarma process. Gratitude for pushing past the fear and allowing myself 10 days of self-healing continues to make my heart smile.
*Virechana, purgation, designed to reduce pitta dosha