So now, when I am lost in doubt or uncertainty, I look to nature. And what I see are elements. Ayurveda examines the elements in nature and in ourselves to understand how our environments affect our individual constitutions and how we express the elements and qualities of nature internally and externally in our minds, in our emotions, in our thoughts, behaviors, actions and patterns. It’s all connected. Ayurveda helped me discover why, when living in Colorado, the cold, dry air aggravated my vata dosha to the point of imbalance. At the time, I was so clouded by my imbalance. I couldn’t see that I needed sunshine, warmth and nourishment in the form of cooked meals and grounding practices to find myself underneath the expression of my imbalance.
In Colorado, Wyoming, and in the jungles of Hawaii I lived in discomfort. I lived in it for so long it became bearable and that’s numbing in its own way. The shock of discomfort always wanes so why would I choose a bearable discomfort over the feeling of home?
Then I think about nature. I know that plants need nourishing soil to grow and animals return home to their nests. Animals and plants know how to make and keep a home. They depend on their homes to thrive. Eventually I will make a home out of my discomfort, so why not choose a home that gives me the greatest vibrancy and restoration? As long as I make a conscious choice to leave the nest every so often to awaken that jolt of discomfort so I can feel vulnerable, raw, alone and even afraid. As long as I know the difference between sitting in comfort or navigating blindly through discomfort and take responsibility to experience both daily -- I think that’s balance. I think that’s growth. I think that’s what people mean when they say they travel only because they can come home. If I stay in one for too long I get complacent. I get stuck. I start sitting on the edge of life too afraid to step forward in any direction. The price of admission to living your best life is courage. The prize is balance, within and without. From balance you can root, you can soar and you can be the best version of yourself.
She currently lives in Los Angeles and works in film and television, aspiring to write and produce. She also teaches private Yoga sessions and small group classes in LA. You can follow her on Instagram @nicolelonero or email her at email@example.com.